love should be something positive, something that makes you smile and make you feel all warm and fuzzy inside...

love is : something that keeps you awake at night, something that makes you hurt so much that you physically hurt inside... when love isnt returned it becomes your worst enemy.. love makes you crazy, makes you do things that is completely out of character...love makes you wish you didnt love.

Its been 3 days since we spoke..its not getting any easier. i find myself going through stages with this...one minute im sad, then im angry.... i cant express it to him though...nothing i try to do to put my mind off things works... 

I dont know what hes told people, one of his friends just wont talk to me at all... he became my friend too.. im not sleeping im scared im angry im hurt... im paranoid... i need to let go, i have to let go, i wish i could let go

 

He knows i spoke to that girl... i was never nasty or malicious to her.. i just wanted confirmation he was telling the truth!
They spent last night together :( she must have told him then... he's threatening with police action..i went mad at him and started calling and texting loads,,, my whole worlds just come crashing down :(

Why cant he understand... i did it all cause i love him and hated his lies.... hes lying to her too.. they were together for 2 weeks....the whole time he was being rude with me,,,, yet i cant tell her the truth cause hes threatened making contact wiht the police.... ive hit a dead end...a wall.

Im heart broken..this hurts like hell.